Thursday, March 31, 2011

Pink and Green Thursday



Happy Thursday! Its Thursday and one of my favorite postings. I was hoping to be able to tell you all about this fabulous purse that I got, but it wasn't meant to be apparently. 


It is a rare Lilly Mar a Lago handbag in Daiquiri and I want it so badly. The inside matches the bag that its stored in and it was a fantastic price. I found it on this site that I frequent and was in LOVE. The lady put on there that it was rare and when I emailed her that I wanted it she was apparently out of town, which I understand. So after waiting-not patiently of course-I was devastated that it was sold. The only thing that bothers me is why are the pictures not taken down when things are sold?

I am a little skeptical now about this site, because I never know if what I am looking at is actually still availble. Do you all think I am being unreasonable??? PLEASE let me know. I have been searching the internet for this bag and have had no luck of course. If anyone knows where i can purchase one please let me know. I need a new spring bag, of course I don't wait to pay full price, and have been searching all over. I want something hot pink of course and am looking for suggestions!!!

I have decided to do something new and am working on creating a new button for the challenge as we speak. I have never made one myself before, but think I can do it. I have been making some changes to the blog-I have always wanted 3 columns, but now my header is not centered! Yuck! Is anyone good at these things?

I recently discovered a few new blogs where people are participating in an event called


52 books in 52 weeks. You all know that I LOVE to read. I am trying to create a button like this for my blog. I discovered 2 other bloggers, Star at Star's Pink World and Kendra at Kendra Diarie's. Anyway, the point is to read 52 books in 52 weeks and I am sure you were supposed to start Jan. 1, but I am confident I can read 52 books by the end of the year. I am going to create a list, link, and button on my blog to keep track of this. Not sure if I will post about the books or not, but I am looking forward to the challenge. Would LOVE it if anyone wants to link up and take part too. I am also excited about the bloggy bookclub that I am taking part in.
You can read all about the book club on Diary of a Scatterbrain . I have been looking for a bookclub to join and can't wait to start. Our first book is


We are then supposed to write a review of the book. I am really looking forward to doing this. Anyway that wants to join please click on the Diary of a Scatterbrain link above. It starts tomorrow, April 1.

Hope everyone is having a great day and thanks again for stopping by! Love you guys!!!

xoxo,
Sara

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What I Love Wednseday


I'm loving the new book I just started, Water for Elephants. I have only read about 50 pages and I am hooked. Check it out!!!

I know I keep talking about it, but I am just ecstatic that UK is in the final four!!! Anxiously waiting for the game Saturday night. We LOVE our Wildcats. Check this video out as the Cats came home from Newark.


 
GO BIG BLUE!!! I am loving the team this year and am SO proud of them.

I am loving that Kat and I had the day off together Monday. We did so many fun things, but the best was shopping at the cutest store we found called ELM colllection checkout there Facebook page. They have the cutest Jewelry at great prices, Vera Bradley, Tyler Candles, and so much more cute stuff I can't even name it all! We got




She bought me the purple flip slops and the flower ones for herself (I am obsessed with flip flops!), the Mail Box set which is so cute and I can write my pen pal now, a pair of silver UK earrings that you know I am wearing all week and the coolest necklace and earrings for herself. I will have to take a picture of them but the necklace has all kinds of keys hanging down in silver, gold, and crystal designs and matching gold key earrings. Super cute and so affordable! The people in the store were wonderful and even gave us 2 Tyler candles just for shopping with them! There was SO much other cute stuff. This will definitely be my go to store for gifts and other cute purchases!!!

Finally,  I am sad to say it is day 30 of Cait's 30 day blog challenge at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous. Today is a picture of someone you miss. Mine is a Big someone or more something in my heart and soul!!!!

The beach and the sunshine, to be more specific, St.Simon's Island Georgia, where this picture was taken. I didn't get to go last year so my heart is aching to be there. July 2nd is the arrival date this year and I cannot wait. I have really enjoyed this blog challenge and getting to know everyone.

xoxo,
Sara


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

My Biggest Fear

I can't believe that Cait's 30 day blog challenge at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous has only one day left. At the beginning it was a huge challenge for me since I only posted a couple of days a week and had like 5 followers. I didn't always know what to write about and I had no idea how to get involved in the blog community. I decided to take on Cait's challenge as a way to make me write something everyday and it did what I intended it to do-it got me comfortable with blogging and I love it! I have almost 30 followers now-which is huge for me-but even better I have really gotten to know a bunch of bloggers and even picked up a pen pal. I won't be stopping anytime soon that's for sure and writing blogs and reading everyone else's has become one of my favorite parts of my day.

That being said I still have to post Day 28 which is a picture of something that scares you. I am super scared of
RODENTS!!!! YUCK!!!!



I am dealthy afraid of any kind of rodents. Even this cartoon picture freaks me out, I can barely look at it. Mice, Rats, Gerbils, Hampsters, Guinea Pigs, all of them scare me. I can't watch movies with them in it, or tv shows, if one comes on scream I immediately cover my head and have to be told when its all right to look. I LOVE animated movies and I was able to watch Desperaux and finally Ratatouille, but I really had to breathe and prepare myself first. I never did have a problem with Fievel (sp?) from An American Tale, but something about these things freaks me out. I lived in a house one time with 4 other roomates and we had mice. When I found this out I was scared to sleep in my room, but also scared to go anywhere around the house. I definitely would not venture into the kitchen, where they were found, and soon after I stopped staying at the house and eventually moved out soon after this incident. When I am in pet stores if I even walk near the aisle where rodents are kept I have to close my eyes and run away from that part of the store. It is a horrible phobia of mine and I am really not scared of anything else. Spiders, snakes, bees, none of these bother me. Sounds crazy I know but I can't handle those nasty things at all.

Moving on to something much better, day 29 is a picture of something that always makes you smile.

UK basketball of course and going to the final four!!! I have to support my alma mater and of course growing up in Lexington means this runs in my blood. Josh Harrelson, or Jorts, has made me smile especially big this year. I love him and will really miss him this year. He really stepped up and has brought so much to the team this year. GO CATS!!!

Is there anything that scares you guys as much as the rodents scare me???

xoxo,
Sara

P.S. Please become a follower and link me up to your blogs! I love finding new ones!

Monday, March 28, 2011

WE DID IT!!!

I am beyond excited that UK is going to the final four. Nothing could have made me happier-nothing except maybe not being at work during the game. I got to watch it between guests checking in but I asked someone to switch with me Saturday (praying that she will) and have already asked off Monday-hoping our boys can make it to the Championship Game!!! Words cannot describe my excitement. I am ecstatic!!! The news and different people all keep saying it was such an upset that we beat Ohio State and that we are in the final four. I am not at all surprised. I predicted UK to win it all. I was screaming when we beat Ohio State but one part of me just expected our boys to do it. I knew they had the talent and capability to do it-they are that amazing. I guess only a true blue fan really feels this way, but I feel like any dedicated Kentucky fan would say thy expected these victories all along. WE ARE GOING TO THE FINAL FOUR!!!!!!!!!!! For the first time since 1998!!!! It doesn't get much better than that.


Here are my boys with the Eastern Trophy!!!




This leads me right into Cait's challenge at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous . Day 27 is a picture of you with a family member. My entire family bleeds blue and that is just a given. Being born and raised in Lexington and graduating from UK means I live for the University of Kentucky. My little brother Bo, who's birthday is today-the 27th-is a senior at UK and LOVES his alma mater so much. Happy Birthday Bo!!! He was right in the middle of the action in Lex this weekend and what could be better than being a senior and watching your team make it to the final four and getting to celebrate with all your friends. My brother is the sweetest, most handsome, genuine, loving, smart, and all around AMAZING guy that I know.


In Las Vegas


At our sister's wedding.

I am so blessed to call him my brother and am sooooo proud of him. I just wish I got to see him more often.

Happy Birthday Bo!!! Love you. GO CATS!!!

xoxo,
Sara

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Friends and Family

I hope everyone is having a great weekend. I can't believe it is already Saturday night and I have to say I am worn out! I was off yesterday and spent the day with my bestest buddy Kat. She was actually sick so I took care of her, got her feeling a little better, went to Cancun for yummy Mexican food, and ended the day watching my Wildcats beat OSU-the #1 team in the country!!! It was a major upset and super exciting. I knew we could do it, but when we actually won it brought tears to my eyes. That might sound crazy, but after being born and raised in Lexington, KY and graduating from the University of Kentucky, I definitely bleed blue. I am so proud of our boys and cannot wait until the play UNC tomorrow afternoon. Sadly, I will be at work, but you better believe I will be watching one way or another!!! Definitely the highlight of my otherwise quiet weekend.

I worked the early shift this morning and then got to do one of my favorite things-go book shopping! We have the coolest store here in Nashville called McKays Used Books and it is basically a huge book warehouse with every kinid of book you can imagine, CDs, and DVDs. The best part is that when my book shelves start getting full and I am out of things to read, I load up all the books, head to McKays and trade them out for a bunch of new ones. Its basically free shopping! I purchased a few Mary Kay Andrew's books, one by Erin Hildebrand, Jane Eyre (because I have NEVER read it and its on my must read list), The Tale of Edgar Sawtelle, and a couple cute chick-lit novels. I couldn't find the 2 books I really came for, of course, so I headed to one of the few remaining bookstores (so sad-I love REAL books) and bought Water for Elephants and The Last Lecture by Roger Pausch. I purchased the last one for the Bloggie Book Club which I am really excited about. I have not found any other bloggers in Nashville and I know in my hometown a bunch of bloggers that I follow have a book club and I have been desperately trying to find one here, no luck. If you would like to join us, check out the link.

It is day 26 of Cait's blog challenge at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous. I am so proud of myself for actually following through with this challenge. It has made me post everyday, I have been lucky enough to pick up a bunch of followers, and has really made me comfortable and excited about writing my blog everyday. If you are a follower you have made my day for sure!!! Anyway, today's challenge is a picture of something that means a lot to me.





My friends and family. I love them all dearly and couldn't make it through one day without any of them. No matter how long I have known them, the people in these pictures are near and dear to me and are all more like family than friends.

I have realized lately how happy I finally am with my life. There are few people who can say this and really mean it, but finally I am one of them. I love each and every person in my life dearly.

I hope you all are having a fabulous weekend!!!

xoxo,
Sara

P.S.-If you find yourself reading this blog please become a follower and send me a link to yours, I will be happy to do the same!

Friday, March 25, 2011

GO CATS!!!

This one is gonna be short and sweet!!! It is day 25 of Cait's blog challenge at Fierce, Fit, and Fabulous and today is a picture of your day. My day today has all lead up to this:








Those are my boys and I couldn't be prouder. No matter what happens tonight, but I know we can do it. We can beat Ohio State tonight. It doens't get much better than that. I LOVE my Kentucky Wildcats. GO BIG BLUE!!!

xoxo,
Sara

Thursday, March 24, 2011

My town-Nashville

So Michelle over at "A little bit of this and that" (A DARLING BLOG) has started a great thing called:





She has gotten a bunch of bloggers to link up and is creating a map with all of our locations on it so we can hopefully meet bloggers close to one another. I LOVE this idea. I have been trying to find some Nashville bloggers that have the same interests as me, however, I have DESPERATELY failed. Maybe this would help. So here's a little info on my little piece of the world called Nashville, TN. I am not from here, but have been blessed to call it home for the past 5 years.

The first thing that comes to mind for most people when you hear Nashville is country music. So many people ask me if I came here to sing. Yeah right. At first a lot of people I met had moved here to follow there dreams, but a short walk down Broadway shows it takes a whole lot of talent and a whole lot of luck and money to make it here in the music business, but that leaves the BEST talent right here that you can go out and hear every day or night of the week. The music scene is AMAZING!!! Karaoke here is not Karaoke. It is professionals belting it out-no drunk girls having fun!




 
Lower Broadway-The Honky Tonks-Tootsie's, The Stage, Robert's Western World

Legends, Paradise Park, Cadillac Ranch, WAY to many to name. ALL so much fun!


2nd Ave-More Honky Tonks! Wildhorse Saloon, BB Kings, Wannabes, and yummy restaurants.

My favorite bar Downtown in Historic Printer's Alley


In addition to all of the fun bars and live music venues The Country Music Hall of Fame is another favorite of mine. It is an amazing museum that can be enjoyed even if you don't possess a love of country music. It features great history, costumes, and all kinds of music and interesting pieces. There is always a specific exhibit going on and I take everyone when they come to visit. You can stay there for an hour or six. I find something new and interesting every time I go.




Side note-I cannot get the alignment and spacing to work on this post and it is driving me insane, I am just a little OCD. Another historic venue here in Nashville that I recommend is The Grand Ole Opry. It is still in the old radio show format and is an unforgettable experience. You get to see a bunch of life music at one venue for a low price. It is a concert format in which you can really enjoy the music. Everyone is quiet and respectful. There is so much history behind it, I never tire of going to see the show.




I could go on and on about Nashville. I could do an entire post on restaurants alone. We are blessed to have so many local restaurants that have exquisite food. My favorite for southern food is Monell's, more upscale is Midtown Cafe, and Mexican would be Las Palmas. I can't even begin to name them all. If you are coming to Nashville, just email me. I would love to meet you and can give you an entire list of yumm local establishments. Another don't miss is Las Paletas popsicles. So fabluous they don't even have a sign. That's all I will say about that!

The shopping in Nashville and surrounding areas leave nothing to be desired. Green Hills Mall is the mecca of a mall in Nashville. It houses all the luxury stores like Louis Vuitton, Tiffany, Free People, Juicy Couture, Lacoste, Bebe, etc. What an experience. The Hill Center is also located in Green Hills and features lots of small, unique boutiques, as well as Anthropologie.

There is so much more I can talk about, but these are the highlights for me. This was so hard for me to do, I LOVE it here and could go on and on. More than anything the people here are super friendly and welcoming. Its a small town feel in a rather growing, large city. If you ever come to town please let me know. I would love to meet my fellow bloggers. Last but not least, if you come you have to stay at one of my fabulous properties-Hotel Indigo of course.


Hotel Indigo Music Row


Hotel Indigo Downtown

I hope I gave you a little insight about this wonderful place I call home. Nashville is read and waiting for you!!! Please let me know if you want to plan a trip down here, I would love to help!!!

xoxo,
Sara








Pink and Green Thursday

I am so so so excited that thanks to Cait at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous I now have a real pen pal! I am so excited. I will now be getting snail mail and will get to know a new person, something I always LOVE to do. I am looking forward to starting this process and of course the first thing that came to mind was stationery. Another excuse to shop of course, but the paper I write on has to be fabulous and reflect my personality. It has to be my colors of course and here are a few I have found so far today that I am loving.








Love them all! Before I jump the gun and order some I think I will go to Michael's or Papyrus and buy a few sheets and of course matching envelopes to see how this process goes. I am hoping this will become a life long process. I will show you guys the final product I decide to purchase and see what ya think! I love the monogramming too, that is just so me.

It is Day 24 of Cait's 30 day challenge (I love this girl! She has the best ideas!) and today is post a picture of something you would like to change. 


My money situation. I hate money because I never have any! I am horrible at saving money and it seems like the bills take my paycheck right away, but I am so blessed to have a job I love to go to everyday, friends that mean the world to me, and most importantly a life that I am finally so happy with. When I read today's challenge I didn't think to have more money to buy things-although that would be nice-but I would like to be blessed with lots of money so I could see friends more often and work less. My family is 3 hours away, but I have friends all over the country. I don't get to see them much due to lack of funds and needing to work as much as I can to live. I can't help thinking if I had more money I could take off work more and go see the people I love and dearly miss. Talking on the phone or via email or facebook is just not enough sometimes. I am such a hugger and just want to see people in person.

Hopefully things won't always be like this, but a large money blessing would be amazing.

Happy Pink and Green Thursday!!!

xoxo,
Sara

P.S. If you are reading this and not a follower please become one! It really makes me smile to see new ones!!!


Crazy Day!

Tonight was another crazy one at Hotel Indigo. People everywhere! Could for the hotel but not good for me!!! I would have no problem if they were all guests, but these people were just there for singer/songwriter night, which is great and brings in bar business, but they are a bunch of kids that are sooooo rude and noisy. There is an entire hotel and they all gather around me and play there guitars and talk. LOUD. Guests have to go around them, they act like they can't move or say excuse me, I have to cover one ear while I am on the phone, and they are just so rude. I know I wasn't in college that long ago, well maybe a little longer than I would like to admit, but these kids are just plain rude. They act so entitled-like the world (and hotel lobby) belong to them and that the rest of us should step aside and let them rule it. I am SO NOT DISSING COLLEGE KIDS, but I have found this particular college seems to be full of rich entitled children. I hate to stereotype, but every situation I encounter these kids in, they always act the same way. It is so hard for me to sit at the front desk and bite my tongue as guests are forced to walk around and through them because they have no manners. I have never ever acted like, nor have any of my friends. What the heck is going on with these kids??? What happened to manners??? Does anyone else feel this way or is it just me??? Sorry to whine, but I just needed to vent and get some more opinions.

On to the blog challenge from Cait at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous. I was sick yesterday, so I am a little behind. The challenge from day 22 was a picture of something you wish you were better at. This is such a hard one for me. I wish I was better at so many things, but the number one thing on my mind lately has been:

Running


Working Out

I would LOVE to be a runner. I used to run when I was in middle school, but really haven't tried it since then. I read all these blogs about running. My sister and a few of my friends are avid runners and have fantastic bodies. I think I am more scared than anything of running and working out in general. I know it will be really hard at first so it's like I just don't even try. My excuse right now is I don't have an ipod anymore-2 of mine were stolen-so how will I work out or start walking/running without music? Lame I know, but I am low on funds right now so I can't buy one. So lame. I want the body and I am eating right so I really need to take the plunge.

The challenge for day 23 was a picture of your favorite book. This is so hard for me. I love to read almost more than anything and I read all the time. In fact I finished 3 books this past weekend alone. I know big dork-but when its warm outside there is nothing I like better than lying by the pool and reading or just sitting on my balcony by the lake with a good book. I am always looking for suggestions on new books, authors, and wish I could find a book club here in Nashville. I can't hardly find any bloggers down here! Some favorite books that I have read lately are





Its so crazy that I LOVE both of the series because they are so outside of the box for me. I think my 2 favorite books of all time are:




Both were assigned reading in high school and I LOVED them both. What books are your favorites? Any suggestions for me???

If you catch yourself reading my blog please become a follower! I would be happy to do the same for you.

xoxo,
Sara

Monday, March 21, 2011

Happy Spring!!!

So this weekend was so amazing, mainly due to the wonderful weather we had here in Nashville-80s every day and sunny. Now that is my kind of weather!!! I LOVED it. The sunshine has such a wonderful effect on my mood and this weekend was no exception. I sat outside on the balcony overlooking the lake and read Hunger Games and The Fixer Upper by Mary Kay Andrews. They were fabulous and I can't wait to read the next 2 books in the Hunger Games series. Check them out-Mary Kay Andrews is definitely one of my favorite authors.

Due to the first day of spring and beautiful weather I am a little behind on the 30 day challenge from Cait at Fierce, Fit, and Fabulous.

Yesterday was Day 20 and was a picture of somewhere you would like to travel. I posted last week about 2 gorgeous places I would like to go Before I die , but with all this warm weather I am ready for the beach. I am always ready for St. Simons Island, Ga, but I have posted about that a few times as well. My Dad and his fiance are taking her grandaughter on spring break to Destin in the first week of April and she called me the other day and invited me to go. I have been all over the world, but have actually never been to Destin.



All I need is the beach, the ocean, and the sunshine and I am set. I have a lot of friends that have been to Destin so I already know I will really like it. Now it depends on work and frequent flyer miles. So I will keep you updated.

Today's challenge was a picture of something you would like to forget.


Winter Winter Winter Winter Winter. I hate it and would like to never have to experience it again. The precious dog in this picture, Maycie, is someone I love dearly and I will NEVER EVER forget. She is one of my best friend's dogs, Mindy, and sadly they moved to Houston. I miss both of them terribly. Anyway, I hate winter.Had the cold, the snow, the freezing temps, everything about it. I am so happy to leave it behind.

Happy Spring!!! Hope everyone had a great weekend!

xxoo,
Sara



Saturday, March 19, 2011

Mr Friend Billy

A picture and a letter is the topic for day 19 of Cait's 30 day blog challenge at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous. The first thing that came to mind when I saw this was my good friend Billy, who unfortunately passed away a few years ago.

It was my first day of treatment. I was in a very strange place in my life obviously, and very apprehensive of what was to come. I remember walking into the tv room in the detox center and saw this guy with long hair wearing a hawaiian shirt watching something about the CMA musical festival on TV. He turned to me and said that he was supposed to be playing there right now. I took one look at him and was like where the heck am I? This guy is really on something and I need to get out of here. I was sure this wasn't a loony bin and that only addicts and alcoholics were supposed to be here, not scizophrenics. I was knew this was detox so figured maybe he had just gotten there too. He introduced himself to me and said his name was Billy. I decided it was probably best for me to go back outside and walk a little bit. I had already detoxed and being around someone on something at that point was very aggravating for me.

A few days later as I entered the world of the "normal" people and into the cabins with people out of detox, I heard people saying that a guy from Lynryd Skynyrd was in treatment with us. I of course was immediately interested, but really didn't care to much. I went about my day to day and kept running into Billy. He always said hi and that "There's just something about Sara." He was really sweet and we started to chat when we saw each other. One day I was talking to him and one of my guy friends whispered to me that that was him. I asked him what he was talking about and told him this was my friend Billy, we had met on the first day. This is when people really started calling me the brunette with blond roots. This was the guy everyone had been talking about. This was Billy Powell, an original member of Lynryd Skynryd.

Of course everyone wanted to know him and be his friend. I didn't care who he was. We instantly had a connection with each other and he became a very special friend to me. One day he was signing pictures for some of the nurses and he handed me one.

It sits on the top shelf of pics in my living room, a space reserved for the special people in our lives. Over the month we were together we became very close. I met his wife and one of his daughters and learned about his amazing life. He played the piano like no other and was working on a song about our entire experience. It was incredible. The most memorable experience that we shared together was definitely grief group. I can't talk about what was said but he talked about the entire plane crash and by the end of his story I was in tears. How crazy to live through something like that. Things went on that no one ever ever knew. He had a girl die in his arms. Many very powerful things were said and I saw how strong this man was and how it had altered his life.The things you learn about yourself in treatment are so so powerful. You are with these people for such a short time, but get to know there whole life stories and many times there deepest and darkest confessions. You can't get better without letting it all out.  Before we left treatment good friends signed each others books. His note is still so special to me.

I know its hard to read, but it is one of the most memorable messages I have ever received and still hold it close to my heart. Whenever I am feeling down I still pull out my books and read the messages. Especially this one.

We continued our relationship after treatment. He came by my hotel when he was in town, sometimes just for a hug. The last time I saw him was in 2007. He played a concert here in Nashville at the Bridgestone Arena. It was so much fun! We got backstage passes and had 10th row seats for Lynryd Skynyrd!!!



Here he is doing what he did best. We of course spoke many times after this, but I never saw him again. He passed away from a heart attack in January 2009. He was an amazing person and I am so blessed that I was able to have him in my life, if only for a short time.

xoxo,
Sara

Friday, March 18, 2011

My Biggest Insecurity

Happy Friday everyone!!! I am very very excited about this week. As you all know in the hotel business you work pretty much 24/7 and almost every weekend. Well I scored big this weekend! I am off Friday, Saturday, and Sunday! I was supposed to go out of town to visit one of my friends, but plans changed and I am staying here in Nashville. I can't explain my joy!!! Spring weather is here, NCAA madness is under way, and my parents are coming through town tonight. I have not seen them since Christmas so I am looking forward to there visit tonight. They also get to see my hotel tonight, which is really exciting for me. They have stayed at pretty much all the hotels I have worked in, or at least been in the lobby, but this hotel is definitely my favorite! I am so proud of our beautiful Hotel Indigo and LOVE my job and my Indigo family. I am so excited about them seeing it and meeting some of my Indigo Family. I plan on watching lots of basketball this weekend and being out in the sun as much as possible. I started the first book in the Hunger Games series today and am already halfway through it and addicted. Many of you have talked about this book and it is even better than I could have imagined! For those of you who haven't read it yet, check it out!!!




Today is day 18 of Cait's blog challenge at Fit, Fierce, and Fabulous and it is a picture of your biggest insecurity. I have a few insecurities that all have to do with my body. One I will never reveal, but the other one is my shape and what I HATE and embarassingly enough call my muffin top. It is actually higher than that, more like love handles, but I HATE HATE HATE them. It is just the way that I am built, more than anything, but no matter what I put on, I always have to make sure that they are not accentuated in anyway and that no one can seem them. They make me hate the way I look. I watch what I eat, but it is time again to start exercising in a major way. It is so frustrating and hard to get rid of them, but they really make me hate the way I look. This time of year it is even more important since it is almost bikini weather. I will still wear one, no matter what I look like, but it really bothers me. I hate feeling so fat.

I never had these until I was about 28 and the older I have gotten it has been worse. I always had a very thin body, could eat whatever I wanted, never gained weight, and the weight I did have was in all the "right" places. People used to tell me "Oh just wait. One day the weight will start sticking to you and be really hard to get off." Even when I had some extra weight on me I could always alter my diet and the weight would come right off or exercise a little bit and it would fall off. To this day I think thats why I have never been a serious working-out kind of girl. That has got to change.

Well those people were right. Once you hit a certain age the weight does not fall off like it once did and it is horrible. I don't care how "lucky" you have always been. The time does come when it stops just falling off and being easy.

Thats me of course on the left and is the best picture I could find of what I am talking about. the chair is covering it kind of but you can see where it goes in on the left, and I was leaning to the right, but there is one there to. Trust me. THEY ARE AWFUL. This was 2 years ago, so I look even fatter now with them.

So there you have it. My biggest insecurity. Writing this definitely motivates me to start doing some kind of working out every day. My diet has gotten much healthier and the warmer weather makes me want to be a more healthy, fit person anyway. What are your insecurities???

Happy Weekend!!!

xoxo,
Sara