Monday, January 31, 2011

A Little Down

I have been kind of down lately and I am sure it is probably because I was sick last week, but it seems like I can't get over this slump. I know what the problem is, but I don't really know how to go about solving the problem. I have lived in Nashville for going on 6 years and I LOVE it here. I love our apartment, my job, and I have made really really great friends here, especially at my new job. I live with my best friend and couldn't ask for someone better to live with. We are so close and really enjoy each other so much. I have found myself missing some special people that don't live here and I feel like just hugging each of them and not letting them go.

One problem I know is that I HATE talking on the phone. It is like lifting a HUGE weight, but when I am finished I am always so much happier. Obviously, I need to do this. I am aching for familiarity lately and for people who know me inside and out. I have been having dreams lately and these friends are always in them. Maybe its because I know there love is unconditional and no matter what happens I can always call them and pick up right where we left of.

Sometimes I think that I don't call because I feel like if I don't have any great earth shattering news then there is no reason to call. I mean I am in a good place, but times are hard right now. I have NO money at all and really can't do anything except pay the rent, put gas in my car, and sometimes eat 3 meals a day. No new Lilly clothes for me or clothes at all. No going out, or buying anything new at all. It is so depressing. I ADORE my job and that means the most to me, but the money is just not there. I don't know what to do.

All I know is I am SO blessed to have such great people in my world but I miss them. I guess I feel like I just need some big hugs and someone to tell me its all going to be ok and it will get better. I miss there sweet faces. Guess I will just have to see them in my dreams for now and pick up the phone and call them. I have decided to post one thing on here everyday that makes me happy. Today it is this:

St. Simons Island, GA, my most FAVORITE place in the world. It is my goal (along with my BFF) to move here. Now is definitely not the time but sooner rather than later is the goal. I absolutely love this place and myself when I am there. It is my piece of happiness in this world for sure.

Sorry for whining, just needed to get that off my chest!

What do you do when you are missing someone??



Sunday, January 30, 2011

Music Makes Me Smile!

So I absolutely LOVE music. I love to turn on the radio and hear a song that just makes me smile. It is so amazing to me that one song can completely change my mood. I love ALL kinds of music. Country, Southern Rock, Hard Rock, Pop, Jazz, R&B, and a little bit of Rap. Rap is definitely my least favorite, I hate all the yelling and cussing, but I do like Eminem's most recent album. Lyrics mean so much to me. I find myself in so many different songs and just listening to all of the different words brings up so many emotions, memories, and experiences. I have found a lot of times that I can't describe how I feel about a particular situation, but I can always find what I am looking for in a song.

Two songs that really really brighten my day and my mood are Stuck Like Glue by Sugarland and Smile by Uncle Kracker. The radio tends to play songs to much sometimes, so I try not to listen to one station all the time so I will avoid hating songs that I like. I didn't post the video above for Stuck Like Glue because it is horrible! I saw it and it changed the entire context of the song for me! I HATE that!

Music also helped me through a hard time in my life. I remember being in Rehab and we had a fabulous guest speaker. When you are in there you are not exposed to TV, Music, the Computer, etc. so that you can focus on your recovery. After this speaker was finished he played Kenny Chesney's That's Why I'm here. I was blindsided by the song and how it made me feel. I had heard the song a million times and never listened to the words. I found so many emotions and feelings in this song and could immediately relate. I realized that while in my active addiction I had lost my relationship with music and that was HUGE for me. As I accumulated more clean time and my brain began functioning more I was drawn to music like never before. Music helped my sanity come back and I LOVED it.

So music became a huge part of my recovery. When I had the rare opportunity to listen to music in Rehab it was always earth shattering to me and I soaked up the words and feelings it brought to mind. I was reminded of all this while I was driving this morning and decided I somehow need to list all of these songs so i can reference them if I am in a bad place again. This might sound crazy to you, but I just wanted to share a tool that has helped me so much. I will leave you with our closing song from Rehab. We always sang this when someone was ready to leave and go back to the real world. I get tears in my eyes every time I hear it.

I'm Movin On by Rascal Flatts. I will have TONS more posts about music and special songs I am sure.

Do you connect with music this way too? What songs inspire you or make you happy?


Friday, January 28, 2011

It's Been Awhile

It has been soooo long since I posted on here, but one of my resolutions is to start updating my blog as much as possible. I started a new job about 4 months ago at Hotel Indigo and I LOVE it. I make less money than I have in quite some time, but I am so happy here that it really makes up for it and I really understand what the difference is when you love to go to work versus having to go to work. Indigo is a unique boutique style hotel and we have 2 different locations here in Nashville. Our location downtown is in an old bank building that was originally opened in 1901. Of course it has been completely renovated, but my favorite area is definitely the bar. I love the colors-pink and green of course-and the white and purple wall is my favorite! Below is a picture of the bar downtown. I couldn't find one where the lights are purple, but where the circles are white below, they are now actually purple. VERY COOL!

I have to admit the rooms on West End are my fav. They all have hardwood floors and there are a bunch of different room types.

I know most people are probably like why would I care, but I am so proud of our hotels. They are just gorgeous and the people that work at both are amazing. I have made such a great group of friends here and have been reminded what true friendship really means. Life has been hard for me the past few years, but slowly things are getting better. We are really a big dysfunctional family and I think thats why we get along so well. We accept each other for all our flaws and differences. If you are in Nashville come and see us!

I am definitely going to work on posting more whether anyone reads this or not!!!

Tata for now!