I have been kind of down lately and I am sure it is probably because I was sick last week, but it seems like I can't get over this slump. I know what the problem is, but I don't really know how to go about solving the problem. I have lived in Nashville for going on 6 years and I LOVE it here. I love our apartment, my job, and I have made really really great friends here, especially at my new job. I live with my best friend and couldn't ask for someone better to live with. We are so close and really enjoy each other so much. I have found myself missing some special people that don't live here and I feel like just hugging each of them and not letting them go.
One problem I know is that I HATE talking on the phone. It is like lifting a HUGE weight, but when I am finished I am always so much happier. Obviously, I need to do this. I am aching for familiarity lately and for people who know me inside and out. I have been having dreams lately and these friends are always in them. Maybe its because I know there love is unconditional and no matter what happens I can always call them and pick up right where we left of.
Sometimes I think that I don't call because I feel like if I don't have any great earth shattering news then there is no reason to call. I mean I am in a good place, but times are hard right now. I have NO money at all and really can't do anything except pay the rent, put gas in my car, and sometimes eat 3 meals a day. No new Lilly clothes for me or clothes at all. No going out, or buying anything new at all. It is so depressing. I ADORE my job and that means the most to me, but the money is just not there. I don't know what to do.
All I know is I am SO blessed to have such great people in my world but I miss them. I guess I feel like I just need some big hugs and someone to tell me its all going to be ok and it will get better. I miss there sweet faces. Guess I will just have to see them in my dreams for now and pick up the phone and call them. I have decided to post one thing on here everyday that makes me happy. Today it is this:
St. Simons Island, GA, my most FAVORITE place in the world. It is my goal (along with my BFF) to move here. Now is definitely not the time but sooner rather than later is the goal. I absolutely love this place and myself when I am there. It is my piece of happiness in this world for sure.
Sorry for whining, just needed to get that off my chest!
What do you do when you are missing someone??