It has been a wild 2 weeks I must say, but I have to share with you guys some really cool things that have been happening.
I should preface this all by saying that most of you know I am not working right now. I have been exploring options and trying to decide what will really make me happy and fulfilled. Life is to short to keep wasting my time doing stuff I don't need or want to be doing.
So last week I went up to Lexington to work with my Mom and get her caught up on Real Estate stuff. I LOVE doing that and always have. I have been considering moving back to Lexington for a while and the time I spent up there last week really reminded me of why I miss home so much. My mind was completely quiet and at rest up there which is a HUGE deal for me! I felt so much peace that I hadn't felt in a looooooooong time. As I have told you guys I am done with the hotel business. I feel like God is pushing me out of it and the past few gigs have not gone well. I have been pondering what I want to do and I remembered how much I LOVE doing real estate with my Mom. I enjoy every aspect and it makes me sooooooo happy and fulfilled. I do have to say that we don't have the best friends kind of relationship. Our relationship has improved and grown so much over the years and we are a great team together. I have enough best friends and love that my Mom and I can work together and maintain an amazing relationship, and I do look to her as a mentor and respect her as my Mom at the same time. So Lexington is definitely an option. I love my job there, have a strong support system, and know that we can move there, regroup, save money, and then move down South to Savannah like we have been dreaming of!!!
I should add a side note here that every time I have lost my job I always go back to considering my dream of social work. I want to do it so much and have frequently looked into it here in Nashville. UT College of Social Work is located here and has an amazing program. I have gotten all my GRE stuff to start studying, lots of info from them, etc. But haven't taken the plunge. I know this is what I am supposed to do with my life. I get so excited every time I think about it, but then something happens and I push this dream aside. For some reason my Mom does not support it. I don't know what the deal is, but her not being supportive puts a damper on the idea.
So fast forward to this week. I have mentioned before that I was in recovery for 2 years, and for anyone that is familiar with AA or NA that knowledge never leaves your mind. My friend N has been struggling with drugs and alcohol horribly the past few months. She was in recovery for about 5 years, but has now hit bottom again. It scared me so much that I was angry at first and stayed away from her, but I kept praying and would always check on her. I saw her Monday and realized how close she was to dying. She was nothing but skin and bones and I finally let her know everything that was on my mind and that she was ready to die. That sounds horrible, but thats the truth. One of her other good friends had told her the same thing. Of course she is not herself right now. I called Tuesday morning to check on her (sadly to make sure she was still alive) and she sounded different.Something got through to her, I rushed over, and 8 hours later had her admitted for detox.
This is just the first step and beginning, but PLEASE PRAY FOR HER. She was complaining that she doesn't want to do long term treatment again, but she is going to have to if she wants to survive. Her support system is here and in place. I am the main contact and have found there are so many who love her and want to help her. More than she knows.
Its weird for me being on the other side of this and helping her. I feel like someone helped me a long time ago before I went and the times after that that I relapsed and I feel so blessed. I see things that I never realized from this experience like how selfish I was, how my friends and family really worried and were serious when they told me that I was going to die. I just look at helping Nikki as a way to Pay it Forward and know thats what it takes. Besides God showing me all this, the social worker on her case was a lady named Debra.
I told her that I dream of becoming a social worker and she just graduated a few years ago from the UT program that I am interested in! I have been worried about my age and that I might be too old to start or out of school to long (I am 31, graduated with BS in 2002). I also voiced my concerns to her about the GRE, my Mom claiming I shouldn't do it because the economy is bad (???), and financial aid. She started the program when she was in hr 40s, the GRE was not a big consideration, and she told me about a TON of jobs that are available!!! She also said when I get into the program she would be happy to be my mentor!!! There are no such thing as coincidences-God had that all planned out! I even have chills telling you all about it!!!
I don't care what anyone else says-I am going to do it. There is an open house on November 8th (how perfect is that) and I will be attending. Its so wild to me to think that I was there helping Nikki and there this angel was to answer questions I have been pondering for the past few years! I am so excited thinking about it.
Sorry if I have rambled, but I wanted to share all that cool stuff with you guys! Sorry I have been MIA but life has been calling!!!